Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Officially going back to school

I know there are thousands of people my age going back to school for various reasons and more power to them, but a few months back while I was sitting in my bedroom meditating and quietly reading from the Book of Mormon and God said "you needed to go back to school and get your degree" I was completely taken off guard.  I wasn't seeking any wisdom as to where my life was going and/or if I should be pursuing such a thing or anything for that matter.  My mind was too consumed with how much of my time has been dedicated to wayward teenagers, an ailing parent, two businesses, keeping up a home and marriage and managing debt.  The timing I thought couldn't have made less sense.  God however obviously has a plan and the more I think about it the more it makes sense that this is the means for me to take care of myself and like one friend has said "to take back my power".  I thought I was doing well to take an hour every morning to pray, read scripture, read from a self help book and journal.  I also meet with two friends for a few hours on Tuesdays to visit and share an energy that brings all of us some sort of abundant gift from our visits.  They don't come every week yet its awesome to check in every week and share what does transpire.  These activities help me feel better about myself and bring me some peace and balance; apparently God feels that's not enough.  So here I am about to set off on a new adventure that I am both excited and terrified of.  All will be well and I know that great things are coming out of all of this.   That's what happens when we allow ourselves to do His will and not ours.